My Silly Laughing Babies

My brother..

I want to dedicate this post to my Amazing brother Jorgie... I want the world to know what Jesus can do and what he has done for my brother. My Brother is a new man, a better man , a man I am proud and honored to call my brother.Last year in August, my brother was saved. It has been a RADICAL transformation to say the least. His kindness and Love overwhelms me to the point of tears, For anyone who has seen him lately , they know what I am talking about. I hear my brother tell me that he loves the Lord, he calls me to ask about my day, and for advice... all this from someone that who use to make it known that he wanted nothing to do with me and that I was basically nothing to him ( at least that is how he acted). I am humbled by the power of the Gospel, Jesus is mighty to save!!! He has changed him Completely, and permantly. He is in the Coast Guard and is proudly serving our country.

whats goin' on..

The babies LOVE to cuddle!!

momma and Layla

Angelina Grace is our " coconut". chubby and cuddly.

Joshua Michael always has his hand by his face. So cute, doesn't he look like his daddy.

a quick little update, and pictures. Things are going very well, the babies are two months old and thriving, and if I may give glory to the Lord... Sleeping through the Night!! Praise Jesus. Gabriel and Layla are both Playing Soccer. They love being with their friends. Gabriel is doing school with Nancy, He can Read!!! it is amazing, I am so proud of him. I think we are also going to talk to jessica rockey about dance class for Layla.She is a dancin fool! So hopefully we will see everyone in church, we are back to the land of the living now. God is kind and faithful.

beautiful chaos..

The twins arrived on July 11th, at 2:44am, and 2:45am... surprisingly. I honestly thought that they would not come on their own, mainly because none of my other kids came on their own. I started with back pain in the evening, and called the doctors, they told me to come in and sure enough I was actually having contractions!! Not painful at all really, but the fact that I was having them meant I was going to have my c-section that night. Joshua Michael (Joshua..NOT josh) was born first, then Angelina Grace. Joshua was taken to CHKD the next day due to breathing difficulty. He was sedated and intubated, then given Surfactant to open his lungs. The docs said it was common in boys and they called it "wimpy white boy syndrome" , basically saying that white males born around 34-36wks have a tendency to not what to breathe, eat, or anything else. He was at the hospital for two weeks and was sent home with a clean bill of health. Meanwhile Angelina was at the hospital with me ( I was still admitted for my section). She was doing great and was discharged the day after I was. .. So fast forward to today, they are both home and healthy. Joshua is 6lbs 5oz and Angelina is 7lbs 3oz and they are growing fast.

I am so thankful for all the prayers, meals and phone calls I have received. Thank you thank you thank you, for everything. Our caregroup has been amazing . God has provided through dear friends and we we are humbled and very blessed by all the love. Here are some pictures.. enjoy!)

update coming soon.

When I have a little more time I will lay out all the details of the babies, the birth and the aftermath and how everyone is doing now. I am a little short on time to say the least. Thank you for all your prayers.

It's the final countdown...da dada da.. da dadada da

We are officially 39 days away from my scheduled C-section, on July 28th at 7:30 am. I will be 38 weeks and 5 days. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE.... pray that we get there, the babies health is our first priority, my size and comfort are not even on the LIST of priorities, you know what I mean. I will endure what I have to if it means 7lb babies. Thank you to all my dearest friends who have loved and supported us. We are so grateful to you for all you have done. God is Faithful.Our trust is in Him alone.

baby update....

So I went to the doctors yesterday for my 32.4 week check up and an ultrasound . The babies are looking GREAT!! They both weigh 4 lbs, Joshua 's exact was 3.15 and Angelina 4.3... which the Doictor said is normal for a singleton pregnancy. He is very encouraged by my progress and has estimated that if I go to my c-section date (which I will Lord willing) they will be 7 and half pounds!!! Praise the Lord. My blood pressure is low, and my weight is still rising, but the good news is, I know that at least 8 lbs of that is pure baby weight, not to mention everything else... We are so thankful to the Lord, His mercy and blessing has been overwhelming. I am humbled by the love of my God.

Happy Birthday MOMMA!!!!

Today is my momma's birthday, she is 50 years old and has not aged a day, in my opinion, since she was 35!!! She is my VERY BEST FRIEND, and I praise the Lord for her.

She is honest, sometimes telling me what I don't want to hear.

Generous with everything she has.

Kind to everyone

A great dancer..thanks for the moves momma

Loves Jesus

Does not love roaches!!!Yuck.

The best Cook

Fun to talk to...about anything

Fun to shop with..buys me things!!

Loving to her family

Self sacrificing, my whole life

Always puts herself last

THE Excellent wife (hahaha)

The best MIMA in the world.

Most available babysitter..thank you thank you

Always supportive even if you don't agree

Loves to give the Kids Baths...seriously she's a bit obsessed.

Loves to Clean, not a trait I inherited

Just the world's best wife, Mother, sister and Friend.

Happy birthday!!! I love you Momma.

All kinds of new beginnings...

I have been asked to post some belly pictures and in my general fashion I realized I didn't have any , so here we are. They were taken a couple weeks ago, so you can image that my ever growing belly is BIGGER!!! But by God's grace I only have a little over 6 weeks to go till my C-section, 48 days to be exact, but who's counting right....oh yeah...I AM!!!

The Hands on my Belly are Gabriel and Layla's. They truly are SO... Excited~! Every time I go to the Doctor Gabriel asks " are they going to CUT the babies out today?" with extreme emphasis on the word CUT. What can I say , He's a boy... you know Guns, fight, kill, bang bang bang .. your dead , that whole thing. Anyway , when I tell him no, he is always so upset. "when are my babies here?" that is what Layla says, Notice she says HER babies, she has already claimed dibs on them as property. I love it!!!What a gift it is to have them be over joyed about our ever growing family. They have asked for even MORE siblings after the babies are born. Lord willing we can oblige them. YES we do want a big family and more Kids. Call us crazy... But we feel so blessed by our kids.

This is my Beautiful friend Tierney at her wedding on April 17Th. I was one of her bridesmaids, and felt so honored to be apart of her special day. The day was perfect. I am blessed to have been a part of it. Also... thanks again T for accommodating for my growing body by letting me have a different dress. YOUR THE BEST!!!Love you.

Before I was a mom... Thanks Jennifer, love you!

My friend Jennifer Napier posted this and I loved it!!! So I copied her, you know the whole imitation is the highest form of flattery.. and all that...

Before I was a mom.
I was sent this recently. Given that mother's day is just around the corner I thought it was appropriate... I could definitely add to the list...Before I was a Mom , I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby. I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous. I never thought about immunizations. Before I was a Mom , I had never been puked on. Pooped on. Chewed on. Peed on. I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts. I slept all night. Before I was a Mom , I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests. Or give shots. I never looked into teary eyes and cried. I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin. I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep. Before I was a Mom , I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put her down. I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt.! I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much. I never knew that I could love someone so much. I never knew I would love being a Mom . Before I was a Mom , I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.. I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby. I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child. I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy. Before I was a Mom , I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay. I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom . I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much, before I was a Mom .

How they roll...

I have been experiencing alot of different and new stages in this pregnancy. Or more along the lines of, being later side effects of pregnancy just much earlier. For example, I have very bad heart burn, and I am very very tired, all the time. Once every couple of days I will have a burst of energy in the morning and the urge to clean everything, but it fades quickly and I am back to being on the couch or in bed again. The Great news is , is that the babies are growing and healthy.My weight is under control, meaning I am being very diligent about nutrition, lots and lots of protein, and my blood pressure is low. Lord willing I will be able to carry these precious angel for the full 40 weeks. I know that may sound crazy, but with the Lord's help, I am going for it!!! Please Pray for us .

Stomach pic coming soon...

I will be posting a picture of my very rapidly growing belly.,

Well what can I say... God is an Awesome Creator!!

We had our BIG ultrasound yesterday for the twins, and everything is going great!!! They are fraternal and measuring at 7oz each, which I was told is a good size for 18weeks. God gave me the perfect baby making partner, we mix well, as they say. We also know the sex of the twins, which , yeah yeah , I know I wasn't going to find out, but that was when there was only ONE, two is a different story, there is alot of Pray and preparation that needs to take place. And I have a couple of friends , and you know who you are..., who were , to put it kindly, anxiously awaiting and probing me to find out the sexes. They want to throw us a shower, and who am I to say no to generosity from friends, you know, " the failing economy" and all that mess. So... going around my elbow to get to my rear... drum roll please... we have ...A Baby GIRL and a Baby BOY!!. We are all sugar and spice and snakes and snails!! Like I said God is an AWESOME creator, he knows my husbands propensity to everything being equal. We are so excited. Please pray that they will be born 38weeks along or more and healthy. Thanks for all your love and shared enthusiasm. we Love you.

Also, Jennifer, if you read this, I remember... I love you... Only a short while friend...then ... we will see her.all my love.

Twins.... But that is two....But I thought we were having one!!!!

It turns out that my first ultrasound was in fact WRONG!! We are having Twins!! God is so good. He is to be praised. What a double blessing. we are thrilled!!

God is good all the time!!

I am so thankful that I have a God who knows me better then myself. He knows I am prone to over reaction( is that one word?) and that I am secretly scared of screwing up my kids. He knows I am weak and have a tendency to be emotional (especially now) . And most all , I know that he is Always there. Thank you Lord for your faithfulness to me. I don't deserve your Love , compassion, care and mercy... But I with gratefully accept it. O how I love my Father.

Friends for seasons??

I have been struggling Lately with friendships. A particular one, but I won't discuss it on screen, what I will say how do you know if the Lord is trying to remove you from a friendship, how is that done at all graciously, or even how do you just not be as involved? People change, especially christians I think because the Holy Spirit is always working on you, refining you , making you more like Christ, but sometimes when this change is happening you become aware that you and your friend are in different places and going in different directions. This has happen to me in the past couple of years, in different relationships. I kind feel like i am walking around on eggshells and that no one will recognize the giant elephant in the room. So the uncomfortable feeling continues, until one day, you are saying to your self, "but I don't want to talk to them". where does that come from, where is the line, when do friends become people you"used to know"?

I have been praying alot and if anyone has any insight into how this whole thing works, please let me know... My desire is to Honor the Lord in my friendships, HELP!!!!

Sick at Christmas, new year yuck, and Jorgie the Conqueror!!!

Well, just a quick update. This Christmas was definiately one of the lowest in recent memory. My brother was in bootcamp and the whole holiday was just rushed and not enjoyable. On Christmas eve , which is normally when my family celebrates, it was very rushed for time because of the church Christmas eve service. I think I would rather skip it next year, then to ruin the evening. then On Christmas day , there just seem to be discontentment flowing in the air.... it just messes with your mood. On the following Saturday, I got sick, and then it got Worse, and then it got Really bad... all I have to say is sinus, blackouts, dizziness and nausea. I haven't been sick like that in a long time. But the good thing about not being able to move out of bed, you have alot of time to read. I read all 4 of the "Twilight series" books. I definately recommend them. I loved them all.

This thursday we went to Cape May New Jersey, to see my brother's graduation from the Coast Guard Bootcamp. It was Great to see him. I have never been so Proud of my Brother, He has Become Such a Mature , Honorable, man of the Lord. His intregrity is overflowing from his new heart and there is just not enough to say about him . The Lord is Faithful and Amazing!!! I cried like a baby, seeing my father in Full Navy Dress suit, give my Brother his graduation Certificate and My brother Salute him, Jorgie also dress in his formal coast guard attire. I am so privileged to see that moment, and I will never forget it.

On another note, you can see that I am pregnant from my ticker, what I have Noticed in this pregnancy so far, is my extreme ... irritability!!! I don't know if you all can related. I have ZERO patience for mostly my family, but pretty much everyone. I get tired of my grandmother asking me fifty million questions and buggy the kids. This especially, drives me crazy to the point that I feel physically ill!! I don't to feel like this and Lord knows I need his Grace to help me through the day. He has been supply.Even though I have not been pressing in, he has been leading me. If you have any advice or if you can even pray for me ... I would be blessed. anyway.. here's to my rambling anger...!(